Peeing in a Cup
Yesterday I wrote a quick post to say that I wanted to write, but I wasnt interested in writing anything, so I left a picture of a puppy (not mine.)
I also left a link to a recent at home drug test I took.
My friend Louis Gray asked me why I took the test.
Seems like an easy one.
Most of the folks that know me, or have spoken to me, know of my past. I had a lot of fun for a long time. During that time, the thing that scared me the most was ending up in jail. Not dying, at times that was the hopeful outcome, but the embarrassment of ending up in jail.
Could you imagine what my mom would say? What my sisters would think? The lack of respect my dad would have for me?
Almost as bad as jail would have been failing a drug test. First off, I dont fail. Anything. Any time. Ever.
Second, there was no way that I would ever take one. I mean, c’mon. I doubt they had the test that would cover everything I was taking at the time…
But, its almost more than that. When I was a senior at Independence High School, I was asked to apply to an internship at IBM. At the time, IBM was still a major employer in San Jose, and they were selecting one senior from all the high schools in the area.
I wasnt an amazing student (I did well), I didnt do a million extra cirricular activities (I did captain the swim team), and I certainly was no less of a smartass than I am now. There was no way in hell I would get the internship.
And, as expected, I didnt. I decided I would go back to the job I held since I was 14 years old, and be a lifeguard and swim instructor.
Of course, since I wasnt planning on joining any sports teams in college (which turned out to be not correct, given I played 4 years of lacrosse at UC Davis), I began to drink and smoke weed. A LOT OF WEED. Like Cheech and Chong amounts. I sold a little (not much to be anything to talk about), and in case I didnt mention, smoked all day every day.
I still remember the first time I got drunk. I had gone to a party with my friend Christine, and someone handed me a 7-11 Big Gulp. I took a sip. It tasted horrible.
“Its beer.”
I wasnt convinced.
“No, thats how beer tastes.”
I allowed myself to be convinced that a mixture of ice, Bacardi 151 and beer was beer. So I drank the entire 32 oz of this concoction.
That night is still pretty blurry. I do know that I licked everyone’s hand before leaving. I do know that I got home lied down in my bed and began to wonder why the WHOLE FUCKING WORLD WAS SPINNING!
Needless to say, the rest of the night was filled with my face in my toilet singing the Puking Song.
My mom told me years later that when she heard me, her first reaction was “My Baby!” to which my dad replied “He’s drunk,” and rolled over and went back to sleep.
After that, it was almost two weeks before I could drink again.
Why does that story matter? Well, as the school year ended, I got a call from IBM. The person they had selected decided to drop out of the internship program. It turned out to be a great program:
- IBM would pay me $300/week;
- I would work there through out the summer;
- If I kept my grades up at college, they would give me a job every summer;
- I had a guaranteed job once I graduated.
It also turned out that I was #2 on the list. The only hurdle was that I had to take a drug test.
I convinced myself I had made a commitment to the swimming pool, and didnt want a “corporate” job. I convinced myself that it was my senior year, and I just wanted to have a fun job for the summer before heading to college. I convinced myself that it would be a horrible experience to work at IBM.
I never said it was because I was afraid of taking a drug test. Of disappointing my parents when I failed the drug test. Of disappointing myself when I fail. After all, I am Micah Gabriel Baldwin. I dont fail. Ever.
So, the other day when I walked into the pharmacy to get my bipolar prescription filled, I saw this row of at-home drug tests. And for the first time in my life, I knew that the results could be nothing but positive (I mean negative.) I bought one.
I took it home. I took pictures of my piss in a cup. (Or if you like, my urine in a receptacle.). I took pictures of the negative result. Then posted them on Flickr, and tweeted about it. (BTW: The reference to @tylerwillis was that I explained that I had tried everything to lose followers in droves. Pictures of my piss? Gained 5. Is there nothing I can say? Nothing I can do?)
Beyond the humor of it, for the first time, I was really proud to have a non-positive result. To know that it would return clean, which stands as a symbol of a new direction in my life.
That when presented with two choices; my decision is always to make the right choice rather than the fun choice.
I wonder if IBM still has that internship open?
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The most important part of this story is “I was really proud to have a non-positive result. To know that it would return clean.” I knew some of the back story and your struggles from your post during BWE. But I'm glad you're being so transparent and sharing. You also said that “dying, at times that was the hopeful outcome.” You know how lucky we are that it wasn't the final outcome. I lost two cousins to drugs. (One from heroin and the other from an OD on nitrous oxide in a stupid accident) The world is much better off with you in it.
I was curious what made you think to take the test. I'm glad you can take your negative as a new badge of honor. Keep it.
The most important part of this story is “I was really proud to have a non-positive result. To know that it would return clean.” I knew some of the back story and your struggles from your post during BWE. But I'm glad you're being so transparent and sharing. You also said that “dying, at times that was the hopeful outcome.” You know how lucky we are that it wasn't the final outcome. I lost two cousins to drugs. (One from heroin and the other from an OD on nitrous oxide in a stupid accident) The world is much better off with you in it.
I was curious what made you think to take the test. I'm glad you can take your negative as a new badge of honor. Keep it.
Thanks for the nice words Louis. When I started writing that post, I
had no intention of telling the IBM story. I dont think even my mom
knows that one! Im pretty happy that I am around, even if I am still
paying the price of those years (cough, cough – irs – cough, cough).
It makes life interesting. :)
Thanks for the nice words Louis. When I started writing that post, I
had no intention of telling the IBM story. I dont think even my mom
knows that one! Im pretty happy that I am around, even if I am still
paying the price of those years (cough, cough – irs – cough, cough).
It makes life interesting. :)
Independence High School was the name of my school too. In Ohio though. Hey, congrats on failing… the test that is.
Independence High School was the name of my school too. In Ohio though. Hey, congrats on failing… the test that is.
You know what I mean. Congrats on having a clean test, which is a fail? Wait, um, you know what I mean!
You know what I mean. Congrats on having a clean test, which is a fail? Wait, um, you know what I mean!
That's wild. I imagine there are a few of those around, but it
certainly increases your awesomeness.
That's wild. I imagine there are a few of those around, but it
certainly increases your awesomeness.
I failed in having a positive test which means I passed by failing.
Huh, wonder if drug tests are the only test you pass by failing?
I failed in having a positive test which means I passed by failing.
Huh, wonder if drug tests are the only test you pass by failing?
I failed a pregnancy test last week. :( Bummer. Working on trying to pass that test soon, so wish me luck. Surprised to find out it's much harder than parallel parking. I like your fail much better! Keep up the good work! Peeing on stuff is cool.â„¢
I failed a pregnancy test last week. :( Bummer. Working on trying to pass that test soon, so wish me luck. Surprised to find out it's much harder than parallel parking. I like your fail much better! Keep up the good work! Peeing on stuff is cool.™
I would be happy to fail both tests! :)
I would be happy to fail both tests! :)
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When i had my first drug test it is positive, i am not scared because i did not take drugs, i ask my parents to take a second drug test just to prove that i am negative and the second test is negative, phew…
When i had my first drug test it is positive, i am not scared because i did not take drugs, i ask my parents to take a second drug test just to prove that i am negative and the second test is negative, phew…
I wish to wish all pregnant women of good mood, easy pregnancy and natural sorts!
Good luck also are happy! Give birth easily and independently! Let not doctors give birth for you, and you!
Also adjust itself on chest feeding of the kid! Read the necessary information!
Be, lovely pregnant mums and expecting posterities of the daddy, are healthy and wise!
I wish to wish all pregnant women of good mood, easy pregnancy and natural sorts!
Good luck also are happy! Give birth easily and independently! Let not doctors give birth for you, and you!
Also adjust itself on chest feeding of the kid! Read the necessary information!
Be, lovely pregnant mums and expecting posterities of the daddy, are healthy and wise!
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